...but as I was working with vulnerable folk, I kept lid on it. Got home and had phonecall from good friend who I don't see often so told her and she was brilliant. Then rang my best friend who despite a houseful of guests gave me time and said they were all a bunch of bastards which was utterly fabulous and what I needed.

As always - wanted to tell him, but I never ring him, so he got a brief email - it's not the same... I'll see him tomorrow and he will be utterly lovely, but of course he cannot 'be there' for me which is why we are where we now are. If it had simply been about sex we'd have scratched the itch long ago. it's just a shame I met the right man at the wrong time. but I'm not prepared to be a victim.