I saw my lover on Monday and we had nice time together, but sad as I knew I wouldn't see him until next Friday - Longest we've been apart other than when one of us is actually away.
He went to daughters for a few days and next week is manic for both of us, so I'm feeling just a bit bleugh tonight.
It's strange how similar situations can feel so different. A few days ago I was relishing space and having home to myself and now feeling overwhelmed with chaos and things to do and missing him. Food, a book or TV programme can feel like a delight or a hollow attempt to fill space. I know it will pass, but I resent feeling like that and hate fact he is not available to me.
On the plus side (I am champion blessing-counter!) I'll also see him on Monday before Christmas and we'll have 'our' Christmas and amazingly due to a work thing I'll actually see him on Christmas Eve and for first time we'll see Christmas day in together albeit briefly. We will then go our separate ways - him to a restaurant Xmas dinner and me to cooking one! I shall be cooking for Mum and sisters and I like combination of doing that for family and then having late evening/night to myself I do (usually) appreciate solitude if I can't be with my lover.
