Spoke to my lover for first time in over a week, attended a meeting re my forthcoming redundancy and then went to a very strange union meeting!

Very unsettled about my lover's bereavement and missing him, but having a strange day, sort of brings me more back to normal. it's hard not to be preoccupied about 'us' when noting his absences on times we would have been together.

I made my bed and am prepared to lie on it, even if I may get a rude awakening. So far it's worth it...