Having explained this badly to Menhir, I thought I'd better make one and actually take notice of what I do! My lover and I had very small ham baguettes for lunch so we would have room for the experimental pud. This is what I did.

I buttered inside of medium glass pudding bowl and poured in some golden syrup. I have a squeegee bottle of it and put in about quarter of inch depth.

In mixing bowl I creamed one egg, two oz each of soft butter (I use spreadable stuff), SR flour and sugar. I added about an oz of water to make it a slightly looser batter, then tipped it on top of syrup. I spread ot around so it was on top of syrup and slightly up around edge of bowl.

I gave it three mins in 1000w microwave, but it really is about watching it and removing when risen but slightly tacky. My Mum's micro is lower wattage, so I know taking it out and sticking back in doesn't harm, unlike conventional cooking.

And as it 'stood' I made custard in jug in micro and it was exellent! The syrup managed to break through and came bubbling up one side of pud, but didn't detract in any way.

I do hope this works. It's so difficult explaining something you do without having to really think about it.

I had a month's holiday to take, so was a bit strange going back to doing some night shifts of my part-time job, but I'm coping really well with staying alert all night which is great. Have now done three shifts in last two weeks and pleased with how I coped.

In terms of other work on self-employment front I have a writing assignment and six day's training work which will keep the bills paid for a few more months. I've also received my redundancy and been paid for work completed. I'm really pleased that somehow work has come my way without me having to be more proactive.

On Wednesday my lover and I delivered a day's training together with me 'sub-contracting' him as my co-trainer to help deliver my training package. It's first time we've done full day's work together although we've run half-day sessions in the past. It went really well (and I have feedback forms to prove it!) and we loved working together, but somehow the wrench of parting was particularly difficult.

Although I have some future work projects, I've not got anything 'hanging over me' as it were. I'm awaiting info from third party before I can begin writing project and training is delivery of someone else's material at dates not yet decided. So I know I'm OK for work and money but nothing needing immediate attention, which feels strange.I am working on my website which is rather rewarding, but I'm being very ambitious so it's a rather big project. Also putting together training I delivered on Wednesday distracted me and I've not yet got back into it.

I see website as beginning of next phase of me proactively seeking work. I want to seem like an expert and a good website seems a good basis for this. I've written lots of stuff about my field of work, so makes sense that it will be on display somewhere.

Saw my lover yesterday for a few hours around hospital appointment and other stuff. We arranged to meet in a car park in Neath which had been taken over by a travelling fair! It threw us somewhat, but I managed to park and we had nice day wandering around Swansea doing errands and chilling. My TV has given up ghost and although I don't watch a lot I like to have the choice, so we went pricing TVs. My current 'must sees' are 'Life on Mars', 'Ugly Betty' and a strange Welsh comedy called 'High Hopes'. I have a portable TV that works but doesn't get range of channels it should.

Had a few hours with my lover today which were very sweet despite me being sleepy after the night shift.

And Easter is practically upon us! How did that happen? I shall be chief cook and hostess to Mum and sisters for the holiday and my lover will be off visiting his daughter, so another change of pace ahead. Next week we will manage a few days together before we both go into family mode. I'm debating over turkey, turkey crown or couple of big chickens. Life is so exciting sometimes... May do piece of beef as well as is my younger sister's favourite, although in our family turkey became the Easter tradition in latter years of Mum having been chief cook and which I've taken over. Of course, there's always the traditional Easter meat of lamb which is very Welsh and my favourite. Decisions, decisions...