Unable to sleep, I got back up last night and did another new CV!
At the moment I'm having a 'There's a hole in my bucket' time - When the apparent way to solve stuff just becomes circular - the way in the song you need water to fix the hole in the bucket but can't carry the water because there's a hole in your bucket. 
It's one of those weeks when my lover's time is constrained but we get to see each other without privacy and I can't make up my mind whether it is worse than not seeing each other at all - Sort of darkness visible and loneliness in a crowd stuff if that makes sense. Last week I chose not to meet one day as it would have been impractcal and likely to be emotionally frustrating and (of course!)I regretted not meeting.
On work front there are various possible opportunities and stuff to be positive about, but emotionally exhausting and I just need quality time with the person I love and who knows me in a particular way. I think I shall see him tomorrow (down to my choice)and will be OK but very difficult. We will have time to ourselves, but not total privacy - lunch and a walk and/or time alone in the car.
I know I'll bounce back, but meanwhile 'stuff' makes me sad... 
trolly
oh, hey.
[sigh]
[passes glass of wine]
me and my man used to only see ech other weekends...and i just craved that time with him before going on with the rest of my life for the rest of the week. it drove me amd at times, but also, i just used to love him arriving too...
so, have a good cuddle in the car is all i can say and book some quality time [aka serious snog] together soon.
trolly x