Nearly time for work and I'm off to Scotland for a few days. Look forward to catching up at the end of the week...
Polly
xxx

Following menhir's comments I've just posted something on radio 4's Arts and Drama messageboard:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/mbradio4/F2766771

I've been a bit lower than my usual cheerful self and had some thoughts about causes. I received the following in an email this evening.

It's rotten for you that "----- is getting moaney/frustrating - and of course there are probably echoes of frustrations and bad memories from the ----- shit as well" -I did wonder about that. It must be horrible. If you are still feeling overwhelmed by clearing up etc when you come back and we have more days you must let me clean through for you while you languish on the futon with a puzzle or book, no work allowed, and then you can come downstairs and see the fruits of my labours.....sounds like my etchings in reverse, or something.

Just writing comments on comments, it occurred to me that my lover and I have been dishonest with each other (and of course I know he is dishonest with his wife).
When trying not to have an affair and safeguard our other relationships we pretended to be happier with our current partners than we were. We also both lied about having a decent sex-life at the time!

Just want to say thank you for comments. Although I blog about whatever occurs to me, my relationship is main purpose of blog. If I didn't want comments this would not be an open blog. I may not agree, but I like to be made to think and examine my own version of reality. I do know how easy it is to delude ourselves - We do it all the time over so many things.