We had another lovely day together, but it won't make the tabloids!

He's been gardening and painting my picnic bench and we went to our favourite greasy spoon for lunch. It's had some new decor since our last visit - A couple of very metallic religious images. One is Christ on the cross and the other is the Ascension of Mary, so I'm guessing a European Catholic heritage.

After our fortifying lunch it was off to B&Q for bark and lawn weed and feed. We did take our clothes off for a little siesta - It was a very hot day and he needed to cool off before going home - Honest, Guv!

Seems my lover can resist babies under three months. It's when they become reactive he's a soft touch around children. This is a man who tries to make eye contact with the sparrows in my garden!
Seems the new Mum is very nervous (not surprising - a new baby must be such a responsibility...)so my lover and his S-in-L did macho things like DIY and garden!
He seems to be appreciating being back in Wales and my company!

I took my Mum and elder sister out for lunch. We went to a pub at top of village where my Mum lives. Had a pretty perfect roast dinner for £6.00 a head. The pub has been done out and is very modern looking, but has these old photos of the village and surrounding area.

Also did my Mum's shopping, so feeling quite positive about having done 'family duty' stuff but actually quite enjoyed it.

Mum's cats set off my allergies, so ended up feeling a bit tired and poorly so went back to bed late afternoon with papers and Bach and read and dozed for a while.

My lover has met his grand-daughter and will be helping his son-in-law around the house and garden, but I know he melts at sight for babies and animals, so will return as slave of his new and first grand-child.

When I was in my twenties I used to sometimes have fabulous Bank holiday picnics with my friends, but otherwise never really gone out for them. Can't see point of going somewhere nice the same day as most other people! But am very aware of 'holiday weekends' being time for mistresses to be deserted for family stuff. My ideal Bank Holiday would be a day of pottering at home with my lover.

I am very happy with my own company and relish the freedom and peace of my own home, but there are times that his absence is more noticeable than others...

...I managed to give 'Granddad' a very interesting day!

It's the conselling ads! It seems I can get 'Face to face video counselling with a qualified experienced counsellor' - Wow! How weird would that be...

p.s. latest ads - I could have 'Cremated ashes made into glass "Keep the memory"'
Or do a diploma course and become a counsellor.
Or there are 'Fantastic low prices'and I could 'Feed my passion on eBay for - bereavement poems!

...he's a Grand-dad!
I believe living in interesting times is a Chinese curse - Hmmm....

Saw my lover for first time in nearly three weeks. Was pleased to see him, but very aware of all the family stuff around funeral - practical and emotional.

He always says he has a nice time with me (and I believe him), even when I give him a hard time and get him to think about 'stuff'! And I prefer to be together than apart, even when things are particularly difficult.

More sweet than bitter, but a bit sad...

Very odd only having limited email contact with my lover when we are both at home...

Today is the funeral, so very odd for him. His Mum has been dead for some time, so he has known his mother-in-law for longer than he knew his Mum - Quite something to get one's head around.

I've had a good day. Following my redundancy, I am interested in some hours that I hope will be available (less that I've been doing) to work with same people I've worked with for last few months. I'm in good position to do so, but don't know if others also interested in hours. Another new post is available in new but related field. I'd enjoy the job if other I couldn't have other hours, but I had to declare interest in new job before I knew about official position with other hours - following me so far? I was interviewed for the new post today. Was honest about my preferences - my bosses know anyway - and I knew they were after someone to do 20 hours and thought it best not to split hours.

I had phone call offering me a job share of hours I''d like if I get other hours! It seems my explanation of why it would be better as a job share regardless of who's doing it actually got my line manager to change his mind about what was best way of providing service!

If I get the hours on 'old' project I'm hoping for, I think I'll have my perfect combination of 20 interesting hours a week and time to do other stuff as well.

Of course I want to tell my lover all about it, and I will, but today is not the day...

Spoke to my lover for first time in over a week, attended a meeting re my forthcoming redundancy and then went to a very strange union meeting!

Very unsettled about my lover's bereavement and missing him, but having a strange day, sort of brings me more back to normal. it's hard not to be preoccupied about 'us' when noting his absences on times we would have been together.

I made my bed and am prepared to lie on it, even if I may get a rude awakening. So far it's worth it...