A Mistress's Tale

...that's all really!
Hmmm... Perhaps I'm not quite cut our for all this confessional stuff...

Been doing family stuff today which usually makes me feel good, but everyone out of sorts and lunch was not a success and I just feel a bit miserable.
My lover is also melancholy, but only contact we've had for over a week is email because he's incredsibly busy and poorly.
Sometimes being strong and sensible just pisses me off.

I was driving along the M4 and was tailing a lorry that promised warehousing, fulfilment and distribution.
I suppose it was fulfilment of orders, but I liked the idea of an organisation offering such a service...

Only toyboy who attempted to pick me us was younger than me, (I saw his identity card) but looked at least a decade older! He sold me a two day tour and offered me an overnight stay at his place if I wanted to save the cost of transfer from my hotel for tour - I politely declined.

I had a fabulous time and would now recommend Turkey to anybody. It is a beatiful country and everbody (other than airport officials) seems very friendly and open and I felt quite safe on my own.

Not yet looked at my holiday snaps other than on camera monitor - took about a hundred I think.

Looking forward to seeing my lover tomorrow.

Had a nice day with my lover on Wednesday - Only day we could both make - a little subdued as also last time together for over two weeks...
I'll miss him, but I need a break and just want to feel some sun on my bones and be away from everything.
I've never been on holiday on my own, so it should be quite an experience.
I've a horrible feeling Turkey is one of the places that women of a certain age go to pick up toyboys - I am definitely not in the market for one and shall arm myself with novels and puzzle mags and practice looking fierce - don't fancy the idea of being a sugar mummy!

After all the frustrations of earlier searches I decided to google my nearest airport and found a site that features holidays from there. I found a few possibilities in Turkey (everywhere else still starting above £700), dithered, read reviews and decided one was really good - and it had gone! Found an OK couple, chose one, got the plastic, decided to book and it wouldn't accept payment! Other one that looked OK had to be booked by phone which put me off. Got frustrated and went for a stomp around.

yesterday I returned afresh, discovered a few Turkey deals and decided to go for one, and order went through and suddenly realised - F**king hell - I'm going on holiday! It's actually SATURDAY I'm going, so I suddenly realised I've loads of loose ends to tie up before I go. I assumed I'd find something with flight midweek or week after, so still shellshocked.

Holiday is a (theoretical) four star all inclusive deal and comes in under £550 with insurance and transfers - when did lift to hotel become an extra?! Hotel has some dubious reviews, but I'll see what happens - it's on the Aegean coast and on the Bodrum peninsular in place called Gumusluk which is supposed to be quite quiet.

My lover is back from family visits and will be visiting tomorrow for only meeting before I'm off to foreign climes for a fortnight - still can't take it in...

I am seriously pissed off.
I want some cheap sunshine for a couple of weeks in May from local airport and it seems impossible. Cheapest All inclusive anywhere seems to be Turkey at nearly £700. Malta also £700 although according to flier I had there was a £539 holiday available - for some reason the 'no single supplement advertised didn't cover that one...
Grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!
I've looked at Internet and lost will to live in confusion.
Lovely woman at travel agent couldn't find anything better than the Turkey deals.
Those specialising in solo travellers seem to be terribly exclusive and based on having an "adventure" or fine wine and dining!
I want to relax in sunshine and potter around somewhere foreign.
Seems that even Spain comes out as over £700.
How do other people get brilliant deals?

Well, I got them out of storage and they still seem to work!
http://pollygarter.blog.co.uk/2007/08/04/topless~2753147/

I got the call and with a sigh knew I had to act. Did my best to try to score locally, but knew I may be limited. I was told that sometimes it is possible to have more... The pause hung heavily as she whispered to the man with the power.

'Are they for the same person?' he asked suspiciously as he peered at me and I nervously tried to justify.

'They're for my Mum. She lives twenty miles away and I won't be visiting her for a while...' I trailed off...

The pharmacist gave a nod, the assistant took down another pack of co-codomol, rung up the till and I hit the M4...

I went on a training day today. Content was interesting and made me think and day was done well. Over lunch I suddenly realised that chap sat nearby was somebody I went to college with over ten years ago and for some reason had fancied like mad! We were both in relationships and never a word was said but there was this chemistry which I don't believe I entirely imagined. I remember us paying a couple in a roleplay and feeling quite self-conscious but having enormous fun.
Gave my day an interesting slant.